Seriously, I am such a wimp.
I don't fucking dare to attempt Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto No.2, I don't want to realize that I have bloody short fingers and small hands loll. But like yea, seriously idc about all of that shit and I will try it and hopefully succeed lol. But currently I'm learning Chopin Etude Op.10 No. 3 and it's toughhhh. Like reallllllllll tough. Ok maybe not but w/e. 3 more days till I head over to Jp ! I know I keep counting down in like every single post that I made.
Oh right, MYE RESULTS. I don't know if it's because exams have been going on for so many years in my life and Im sick of it, or if I really changed so much after going to secondary school. I start to not give my best, I start to not try, I start to feel sick of everything. I didn't score so well lol, all of them are just average. And most of them are C's ? I suppose I am an idiot after all aha. Only A that I actually got was Mathematics, and I scored 88. Personally I'm not happy with that score, but I can't say that I'm actually disappointed ? lol.
Right now I am deciding if I should transfer to SOTA anytime soon pfft. I don't think my mum approve of this, neither will my dad. I just feel like, I should pursue what I actually like ? Not that I don't enjoy studying or anything like that. Just that I really love the piano, and I wish to like, be a professional at it or something lol. Is it unwise ? Will I be wasting my life studying something which actually doesn't help me at all in future [ as in in terms of financially shitzxc ] ? Whatever, I shall just continue my boring boring boring boring boring boring boring life. And get into some random company, work for some random boss, become a manager at a nearby company, retire, die. zzzz. That's not the fucking life I want.
